i think its time to hit the yoga mats again - makes me feel antsy already! but yeah i think i need to find some inner stillness ya dig? i think its cause my mother - today when she was driving me to school - she said i changed... since i got back from nepal. she says that i have grown to be,literally, a bitchy little girl. i think i act differently with different people - but especially to my family. i love them but... things slip out when they shouldn't sometimes. my mother is usually very subjective and finicky when she comes to telling facts - but if she says i've changed, even though i deny it, i have changed. and apparently for the worse. i mean...i do find myself.. thinking more negative things nowadays compared to before. i wonder why. i don't think i'm nice anymore - not the quiet and nice girl anymore. i don't like it but i don't know what caused the change.

yoga should help me calm myself down...at least... to regain my composure.

its easy to give advice but its harder to actually follow what you preach..

breathe pauline... just breathe..