whatcha say?

"sure not to ever fuck around with the fuckers-and "

Growing up

up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground

I still remmeber the weather that day when the teacher took the photo in front of the school. I had on a thin purple jacket and a pair of blue pants with a flower print, my grade 1 glasses, and a headband in my hair...the weather was gloomy and my face was fixed into a perpetual squirm. I really like that picture. It seems like just yesterday when I walked in junior high alone with the clean crisp fall air and the butterflies in my stomach & it seems like recently that I just graduated with my blue dress and flower in my hair & that pin with my mom, dad and me at kdays 10 years ago- what about when my dad tricked me and pulled out my baby tooth? the tooth fairy would always leave money behind. haha...

up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground

one thing that followed me through the years is a vivid dream.

a dream so dear that I am willing to give up my youth and the memories

up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground

Moby - temptation

swimming

miss it.

just like everything else

R.I.P neighbor

Nothing strikes me harder than the tender subject of death
tell me a story of a person you have lost, my heart will sympathize for you.
and tears will blindly fall

i dont know why it hits me so hard
i mean death is a natural process of life but no matter how much i tell myself that
it is. Death is not natural; death is something that isnt supposed to be for humans because it brings with it a whole trainload of pain.

though i did not speak to my neighbor or remember his face, my heart goes out to the family and friends.

RIP neighbor...

wake up call..

hi university .

hi.

bye
3:50 for 4 months. wake up at 6 to come home at 5.

alright.

university 101

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude. Thomas Jefferson

obsessed

why are you so obsessed with me?

i cant help it. i love u university

especially the 2nd floor of rutherford library
i'll see you all there :)

first day

well, all i can say is
1)do not wear uncomfortable shoes
2)having friends you know in classes is a good thing
3)GET READY TO START THE COURSE (pens&paper all ready to go)


all in all, it was just a lot of walking around and looking for stuff
the profs are cool except my stats one - he rambles a lot ( talked about the bible for quite awhile... in a STATS class... STATS! )

P.S. printing stuff is going to be way expensive sigh

i got to see a lot of familiar faces which was quite nice

aite. peace .
SEE YOU ALL LATER

reflecting

ever have that feeling... when you are done organizing everything, done thinking about everything, there still seems to be something missing? like you can't complete a puzzle. I've been trying to get ready for university, organizing my things, putting labels on binders, finishing up on errands, making lists, it seems like i'm all ready to go but there is something that I can't quite get over- a feeling.. like i'm not ready and yet I've been waiting for this moment my whole life... maybe i dreamed and fantasized about it so much, that when its actually here... it's something completely different, something that I don't exactly want to endeavor. on the other hand, it also seems like I've become a different person, someone bitter and scared of everything, almost to the point, where im no longer confident in the things i do.

anyway, that's just a babble about my jitters.

i actually have butterflies, seems like im going off to completely different universe or something... haha.. it's just university anyway and i am shocked to say that i am going to miss the familiar faces... i know i know, i said that i wasnt exactly fond of seeing the same people day after day, but its comforting to see a familiar face when you're starting a new journey

i have already started reading some of my psychology book- very interesting

anyway, i don't know how many times i'm going to write in my blog, but i'll stop by once in awhile.

if i dont see you guys much, i hope you guys all have a smooth transition into university life and best of luck with studies-never let anything or anyone take away your dream

its time to start real livin'

your friend,
pauline hoang