vitamin D please and thanks

Yea know what else starts with a big capital D? Depression. This long winter without sun is making it quite hard to keep a smile on my face. the end of the school year is coming and i cannot be anymore glad. nothing new has really been up with me really. i have to interview 3 people for PMSA tomorrow - wonder how i will feel...finally being on the other side of the table? ruthless? haha nah... i think its an accomplishment to get to one side of the table to the other. i worked hard for it. if you havent watch burlesque. maybe you should as well. i was watching it with my mom and she was like chattering throughout the movie asking me questions. but it was good :-) anyway, that is it. i am off to finish off that paper due on monday.

anyways, i am trying to keep a smile on. so.. so should you :-)

toodles

some advice:

penis envy - case study of brandon hoang

so i was showing asshole brandon something and i accicently flung my hand to his penis area
and bam he is in his sissy grip in between legs stance and he is all like awww SHH.. AWW.... you know the typical sissy guy sound

and he drops to the floor

and then after that he gets up and laughs

"youre lucky i dont have a penis"

moms

they got a built in mechanism to nag at you

it's never your dad.
DAMN.

Dr. California

today is a beautiful day with some sun. i went to talk to my philosophy prof about my essay lol. it was awkward. really awkward. there came a point where i was looking at him and he was looking at me. and he wasnt doing anything but looking at me looking at him so i was like.. so... edmonton huh.. didnt like california? lol! then we had a small talk about american schools. it was good ha-ha. omg i saw eric isberg for the first time since last year it was good we made eye contact. and we're like hey!
good stuff. i like seeing people i havent seen in awhile and just saying the occasional passive hello.

thank you butter and jam

you guys dont know how much i appreciate you listening

thank you. thank you. thank you

3 lines

you know that portion of gateway lol 3 lines. i like to read those. i am still waiting for mine

to the girl who always arrives late to physio - yeah you with the glasses. get an alarm clock or something.

hahahha

3 lines for today:

to the short girl who works at subway with glasses. jesus. i didnt mean to offend u with my question.

BUNGY NEPAL

tracy: what's the most important thing to you?
me: right now?
me: or as of all my life?
tracy: both i guess
me: i dont know.. theres a lot of things running thru my mind
me: i think its striking the balance between family, health, school, friends, love
tracy: its hard.

yeah.. sure is

i think its time to hit the yoga mats again - makes me feel antsy already! but yeah i think i need to find some inner stillness ya dig? i think its cause my mother - today when she was driving me to school - she said i changed... since i got back from nepal. she says that i have grown to be,literally, a bitchy little girl. i think i act differently with different people - but especially to my family. i love them but... things slip out when they shouldn't sometimes. my mother is usually very subjective and finicky when she comes to telling facts - but if she says i've changed, even though i deny it, i have changed. and apparently for the worse. i mean...i do find myself.. thinking more negative things nowadays compared to before. i wonder why. i don't think i'm nice anymore - not the quiet and nice girl anymore. i don't like it but i don't know what caused the change.

yoga should help me calm myself down...at least... to regain my composure.

its easy to give advice but its harder to actually follow what you preach..

breathe pauline... just breathe..

i fucking hate drunk people.

remember that.

you get pissed off when people dont appreciate the work you do? yeah
they think its easy to do but they havent even come close to what you have done? yeah
plays favourites? yes

the fucking university of alberta= son of a bitches administration.
lets see you go save the fucking world

To make you feel my love

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you
I'd go crawling down the aisle for you
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on a rolling sea
Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothing like me yet
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

a great song

even now, i fall more and more for you

damn it.