hahahhahah i wrote ahem instead of amen

CHARLIE BIT MY FINGER.

fun chilling with the home slices anito philio and hens

pile of chicken bone wings
& yoga moves

cake
lmao

goodtimes

ahem to moving on

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

time to get

FIT.

kinsmen with the kidlets

please leave comments on how to improve

this is a cover letter for the volunteer position I have drafted up

i have decided to perhaps take a 1.5 month detour to volunteer in Nepal ( situated between India and China)

your constructive criticism would be deeply appreciated

Dear Whom It May Concern,
My name is Pauline Hoang and I am currently in my first year of a general science program at the University of Alberta; one of my many aspirations is to pursue a career in medicine.
Throughout high school, I have done a generous amount of volunteer work and participated in a variety of extracurricular activities. I was an active member of my school’s student council acting as the grade 12 representative. I was also a part of the “Green Team” which raised awareness about environmental issues throughout the school and the community. Moreover, I was on the swim, badminton, and cross county running team. In addition, I have gotten several scholarships for my superior academics achievements and accomplishments in volunteerism.
There are several reasons why I chose to volunteer abroad; one of the reasons being is that I love to travel so I decided to combine one of my hobbies with one of my passions – medicine. I strongly believe that volunteering abroad would provide an amazing educational opportunity for me to understand how different parts of the world deal with their health care system. The experience will expose me to foreign situations which will enable me to develop insight about the world, allowing me to become a more independent and knowledgeable individual.
I believe I am a well-qualified candidate for a volunteer placement because I possess many assets which are essential in an exceptional volunteer. I am an extremely hard working individual who will not refuse a challenge. Regardless of how simple or difficult, I always strive to do a task efficiently, effectively, and to the best of my abilities. I always preserve in any difficult situation. Also, I work well independently and with others. I am also reliable because I am always well prepared and on time. Lastly, I am passionate about what I do -- I am selfless and I strive to help in any way I can.
I am also knowledgeable about the health care field because I take part in several health care camps that allow me job shadow many professionals in the medical field; I am a member of the Pre-Med Association at the University of Alberta. I am currently a volunteer at the Canadian Diabetes Association and I have done a two year health internship at the Royal Alexandra Hospital.
Thank you for taking the time to consider me for a volunteer placement. If you have any future questions or concerns, please do not hesitate to contact me at not getting my phone number :) or email me at paulinehoang@hotmail.com.


Yours Truly,
Pauline Hoang


Thanks guys!

JESS <3

i just read ur shopping w/ hoang

hahahaha oh good times

you never cease to put a smile on my face

what would i ever do without you?

yours truly,
flimseyy

it was a present in itself

i did rounds with 3 doctors, one of which is the chief of neurosurgery at RAH , Dr.Ma, and Russell who is a fourth year med student
one was a pharmacist who kept saying "when you become a doctor" and pointing at me
(i smiled gleefully)
and one big boss who i worked for 2 years ago hahahah


Dr. Ma tested me on the Na/K pump lol & he let me look at some CT scans
and i had to figure out what was wrong..

"Medicine is a lifestyle"
"Take your time"

Do something you are passionate about

Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays everyone!

Best,
Pauline

TEAR. why are people so damn smart. u damn smart people
go to u of smartness u smart kids of smart. SMART NESS
YEAH GO SMART URSELF. SMARTY PANTS.
must prepare for the effin MCAT.

TEAR.
SMART ASSES. SMART. ARGH

ow my body hurts

a lot
haha snowboarding is the shiz haha

thanks tho for teaching me , you are an excellent teacher (:

weep in self pity at my future

SUCK IT UP PAULINE SUCK IT UP.

its all good

PBJ
snowboarding
homosexual movies
cute guys snowboarding
happiness
movies
cars
its time to chillax homies

take an easy

i hope everyone fails psych T_T

dec 16- sleepover PBJ
dec 17- snowboarding with tho, and joy
dec 18
dec 19
dec 20
dec 21- jesslieu paranormal activities! @ wem
dec 22
dec 23- anito and joy day
dec 24- christmas party w family
dec 25- CHRISTMAS!
dec 26-


msg me, we should chill. :)

dude i am so sccrewed for psych


CHAO OUTSIDE MUDDAFUKKKASSS
lol

I SAY WE SUMMON A SPIRIT

hahahha

lol @ paranormal activity
good laughs

tell me

what can a girl do man

theres only so much i can do

theres no second choice

finals SUCK MY CHINESE BALLS!

just cause i have an english final tomorrow
im going to write about human emotions and why they are critical in sustaining humanity.

Many people associate their humanity with the ability to feel human emotions, thus living life void of human emotions deems an individual inhumane. Although many people think that human emotions lead society to its demise by intiaiting feelings such as rage and anger that cause humanity to rebel against itself, this is the least of humanities' worries. When people are able to feel emotions, they become senseless drones - identical from another, void of purpose to live. thus blah blah blah

u get it it?
IN SUMMATION, aforementioned what have you

human emotions enable humans to have a sense of purpose in life.



no kidding.

i recommend:

EQUILIBRIUM - by kurt wimmer

good movie

Dear Butter and Jam:

goodluck with exams . PBJ we will cry and laugh our hearts out at our reunion
till then my sandwich spreadings

-your peanut

lol one day i will wake up and be lonely says my mom

when will it end?


i love :

i bruise easily- natasha bedingfield
&
from where you are - lifehouse

i feel like OC. miss it lots.

what a white snowy day it is today

hope. hope hope. i love you hope
because you give me a reason to continue

CLASS 5 BABY!!

hahha. its a bit late to make my day but
there's still some hope:

pauline: Had technical difficulty with this assignment. Had to do it twice and I cried.
psych TA: Having to do it twice didn't hurt your paper obviously. You did a great job.

lol thanks for making my evening

16 day challenge. lmao.

BYED hahaha

just feels like its
NEVER
EVER.

enough.

thought i would share :P

Jai Ho

you are my destiny

the worse feeling is having no control over your decisions and actions

whats the point of being 18 when i feel more like a child
than ever?

Im dreamin out loud,
dreamin out loud,
and all at once its so familiar to see,
Im dreamin out loud,
dreamin out loud,
cant find a puzzle to fit into piece of apart of me

the writing below contains scenes of violence, nudity and coarse language

viewer discretion is advised:



Caution: Mutations May Occur
Some people gain great satisfaction from growing plants, claiming that the reward is at the very end, perpetually waiting for the “happiness” that it will bring when the buds bloom into beautiful flowers. So what happens when they don’t turn out the way we imagine? The person who came up with the saying that children are our future should seriously reconsider because I wouldn’t trust our sex raving, violent behaving, disrespectful little angels to be the leaders of our tomorrow… Oh no, if that is what the future entails, then count me out! Kids nowadays talk as if they are CEOs of a multimillion company with their “Yeah, those Rock and Republic jeans are totally out, I wouldn’t be caught fuc!^#%^ dead with those on ” Are you serious kid? You haven’t even reached puberty yet and you’re talking about a pair of jeans worth more than your whole bank account? Wait. You don’t have a bank account. Or the kids that I dreaded sitting in front of on the LRT: “Yeah… he was like a dog that couldn’t stop humping my leg… and his cum tasted like…” yeah I don’t even want to go there…I bet the word condom isn’t even in your vocabulary yet. What happened to the “I want to become an astronaut”, “I want to become a doctor”, and the simple gestures of thank you and you’re welcome? Now all we get is: “imma bust the cap on your mother f#**R!@ ass.”
To the people who decide to have plants: they are a big responsibility! Grow with caution and water daily because neglect could turn that pretty little rose turns into a ferocious Venus fly trap.

flea markets

place #4

dont know when i can ever feel bliss

lol

one day

(: open field the notorious fox

sigh...
i just want to be happy...

all these tears feel the same.
just get me out of here
i want to hear myself...
dont care about all the pain in front of me
because im just trying to be happy
so what if i break down?

i gotta find my place.
i just want to be happy


P.S - rot in hell bio TAs.

oh man. November already... can you believe it?
one more fricken month of hard work and then a stressful week and then..
some freedom!!! lol
well we have to somehow endure some kind of torture.

im currently at rutherford south. supposed to be doing my bio reviewhahah
IM GETTING TO IT (;
mmm asides from that

i think we should all move on and not linger in the past. yep. can be quite unhealthy

im looking forward to watching the matrix movies that i borrowed from my uncle hahhaha
lame.

aite best wishes everyone!

i think i might be sick

lame


LAME. if i do not ace tmrrw's exam.
there is something seriously wrong with my neurons.

peace out
need to hot yoga it up real bad

ill never find no body else that can love me like you do
ill never find no body that treat me like you do
ill never find no body else
ill never fall in love again

taio cruz - ill never fall in love again

thanks butter

feel better jam


- your peanut

moksha with jesslieu on halloween :)

in the end i know that everyone will leave me
friends will come and go
but my family will always stick by my side
through the ups
and the downs

love you ann (:
youre the only one that brings out the
true me
too bad life doesnt always work the way we want.

dec 19-21 <3

p.s. being a heartbreaker isnt a bad thing if its what you believe is right

wish i had the power to go back to the past

how many things i would change

haha...

ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

U
C
K
!
?

i am 18

hot yoga with jam and butter
haha
thanks guys
<3

one day

18:
- i can vote
- can finally do those telephone surveys hahah YES IM 18
- sign my own papers
- i can go see what this clubbing hype is all about

=)<3 snow snow snow
bikram.

birthday

thx family

i love you guys with all my heart

<3

god.

help me with my studies.
please...

your lamb, pauline

whatcha say?

"sure not to ever fuck around with the fuckers-and "

Growing up

up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground

I still remmeber the weather that day when the teacher took the photo in front of the school. I had on a thin purple jacket and a pair of blue pants with a flower print, my grade 1 glasses, and a headband in my hair...the weather was gloomy and my face was fixed into a perpetual squirm. I really like that picture. It seems like just yesterday when I walked in junior high alone with the clean crisp fall air and the butterflies in my stomach & it seems like recently that I just graduated with my blue dress and flower in my hair & that pin with my mom, dad and me at kdays 10 years ago- what about when my dad tricked me and pulled out my baby tooth? the tooth fairy would always leave money behind. haha...

up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground

one thing that followed me through the years is a vivid dream.

a dream so dear that I am willing to give up my youth and the memories

up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground

Moby - temptation

swimming

miss it.

just like everything else

R.I.P neighbor

Nothing strikes me harder than the tender subject of death
tell me a story of a person you have lost, my heart will sympathize for you.
and tears will blindly fall

i dont know why it hits me so hard
i mean death is a natural process of life but no matter how much i tell myself that
it is. Death is not natural; death is something that isnt supposed to be for humans because it brings with it a whole trainload of pain.

though i did not speak to my neighbor or remember his face, my heart goes out to the family and friends.

RIP neighbor...

wake up call..

hi university .

hi.

bye
3:50 for 4 months. wake up at 6 to come home at 5.

alright.

university 101

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude. Thomas Jefferson

obsessed

why are you so obsessed with me?

i cant help it. i love u university

especially the 2nd floor of rutherford library
i'll see you all there :)

first day

well, all i can say is
1)do not wear uncomfortable shoes
2)having friends you know in classes is a good thing
3)GET READY TO START THE COURSE (pens&paper all ready to go)


all in all, it was just a lot of walking around and looking for stuff
the profs are cool except my stats one - he rambles a lot ( talked about the bible for quite awhile... in a STATS class... STATS! )

P.S. printing stuff is going to be way expensive sigh

i got to see a lot of familiar faces which was quite nice

aite. peace .
SEE YOU ALL LATER

reflecting

ever have that feeling... when you are done organizing everything, done thinking about everything, there still seems to be something missing? like you can't complete a puzzle. I've been trying to get ready for university, organizing my things, putting labels on binders, finishing up on errands, making lists, it seems like i'm all ready to go but there is something that I can't quite get over- a feeling.. like i'm not ready and yet I've been waiting for this moment my whole life... maybe i dreamed and fantasized about it so much, that when its actually here... it's something completely different, something that I don't exactly want to endeavor. on the other hand, it also seems like I've become a different person, someone bitter and scared of everything, almost to the point, where im no longer confident in the things i do.

anyway, that's just a babble about my jitters.

i actually have butterflies, seems like im going off to completely different universe or something... haha.. it's just university anyway and i am shocked to say that i am going to miss the familiar faces... i know i know, i said that i wasnt exactly fond of seeing the same people day after day, but its comforting to see a familiar face when you're starting a new journey

i have already started reading some of my psychology book- very interesting

anyway, i don't know how many times i'm going to write in my blog, but i'll stop by once in awhile.

if i dont see you guys much, i hope you guys all have a smooth transition into university life and best of luck with studies-never let anything or anyone take away your dream

its time to start real livin'

your friend,
pauline hoang

buh bye e town for a week!

Jason and kevin are my 2 gay cousins hahahh gay as in cool uhjhh I mean happy lmao they say that I embarass them even though there is no one around . My singing cant be that bad :)

yup. much love

made peace. friends : )


I HATE VIOLIN EXAMS!!!! f urself !!

big 18

LOL LOL @ brenda !

have u ever been happy to get rid of someone?

I HAVE.

ROAD TRIP

EDMONTON , RED DEER , CALGARY , BANFF

cruising in my aunt's new mercedes benz with the navigator telling you every precise turn was the life. i slept a lot in the car but i also did a lot of thinking. long car rides are the best.

i went with my aunt lan, emily, joey, ronin and my other aunt and uncle

our first destination was banff. man banff is invested with hot guys! and the shops there are cool. we actually went shopping. they have stores like safeway, lululemon, the HBC, indigo, etc. plus shopping and being surrounded by the great rocky mountains, i dont think anything can compare.

we also went to the banff garden, some grand garden they have there with lots of pretty flowers. i can't wait to do this with my family one day

then we went back into the car, drove to calgary with some purchases. ( i actually paid for lunch there, tony roma's) when i was paying with my debit, I accidently gave the guy a 98 dolar tip HHAHAH. he said he was flattered but it was too nice HAHAHAH. lame

then we went back into the car, lots of ronin crying ( babies scare me now )

we went to calgary to get a hotel and we rested for a day. early in the morning i took emily and joey to swim in the pool and the sauna.

then we went for some dim sum. YUM ! they have some good chinese food there. edmonton food sucks! and i bought some tea for my dad in the marlborough mall for his bday ( claims his still 19 )

then we went shopping at chinook mall. i bought a FCUK sweater there

great shopping there
they have a merry go round in the mall
i know
totally cool.

all and all, it was the best road trip ever

copy cat

i saw brenda's nice updated blog and i thought i would change mine as well.
very nice
:S i like to shop now
uh oh

university student

the girls + CLODE.

Work can be very boring and strenuos, especially if you're sitting doing filing and sorting all day long. (8hrs to be precise) but i've recently met these great people. 5 girls and 1 boy hahahha; they make my day, planning to go to the leg together on friday :) im so glad i met them.

MOMENTS in the CAR

hahahhaha
danny fernandez- never again
EMOTIONAL SONG!
its HEART WRENCHING
hahahahha
i was singing it in the car , having my own lil party
if u know what i mean
and
my mom LOL

kept singing BOUT IT BOUT IT OVER AND OVER
hilarious

listen to the song ;)

YOU took my forever and ever away

Everytime I get to look upon your face
I feel like my soul is dying
Everytime I reach for you its empty space
I feel like my heart is crying for you
I hate to be away from you but I'll..
I'll understand if you can't give me all I've dreamed of
But I'll still be waiting, cause I can't get over you..

When we were in love..
You told me I was your angel
You were the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took our forever and ever away
Away.. away..
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. forever away..)
You took our forever and ever away

It's like I'm stuck in one place
I just keep going around
I can't keep wondering around so i just..
Took my heart up off the plate
Cause I continue to cry
I don't know why I keep trying.. to fit a picture in this frame
You just break it everyday (but I can't get over you)
My mind is telling me to leave
In my heart I just don't know what to do
Cause I can't get over you

When we were in love..
You told me you were my angel
And I was the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took my forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took out forever and ever away

So how can I love you
When you made me believe that it was only me.. me..
How can I trust you when you deserved to leave
What made you lie to me.. me..
How can I touch you
I feel it in your touch
There's no room for us
How can I want you (uh huh)
When I deserved to be with someone who truly loves me.. yeah.. yeah..

I'm talking on a daily
She got me goin' crazy
My baby ain't the same as
As all these people sayin'
And I ain't really patient
But I'm debatin', waitin',
Cause she be hesitatin',
And she gon' slip a mistake in
Thinkin' I put my faith in
How could this help the datin'
She ain't participatin,
And if I'm not mistaken
Late at night the phone vibratin'
Translation nigga's cakin'
My trust is slowly breakin'
So I'm the one that's breakin'
Was it the weather baby
You said forever baby
And through the rain and the storm I was your shelter baby
I'm looking at your picture,
This is my coldest winter,
I'm feeling like december
I'm feeling like december

THE GERMAN CLUB

too fun.
family love
i've decided to invest my money and love to
1) A GUY WITH A BOAT
2) A TRAILER
3) MY OWN BOAT
4) A SKI DOO
5) LMAO I LOVE SUMMER


germans united.

DONE DONE & DONE!

bye highschool!

welcome summer, i've been waiting for you.

tiburon <3

listen

CORINNE BAILEY RAE
"like a star"

true true friends

We can pick and choose who we want to remain close to.
once we have chosen those people, we tend to be close by.

the people who we are with at the end of the day...

-.- english. bitch.

hahahhahaha DAMN!

we make mistakes to find out who we are...
and though it hurts.
its the only way

understated

thanks lepatsky (:

no more high school. lets go dip our
toes in the new water-being cautious and scared all over again.

its going to be a good summer. no more worries about high school
everyone seems all sad and already nostalgic
but i got news for y'all

HIGH SCHOOL CAN GO SUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D and yeah im so glad to be away from lazerte.
no longer my school
i will miss the teachers tho.
isnt it weird you can only go to highschool once?
you will never be able to go back again, in time i mean. very odd. (:
i've been waiting for this my whole life...

Success is the good fortune that comes from aspiration, desperation, perspiration and inspiration.
Evan Esar


I know that I have accomplished some pretty big failures this year, but I accept what I cant change and smile that IM DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well..
ALMOST !

sunset

SUMMERTIME

time for PICNIC!!!

watchin the ducks
making the food
talking and being chill

yup.

LOL. jesse mccartney = hahahahhHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
so cute

WHERE YOU AT HOPE?
i need some hope..

after math

accomplished some pretty big failures this year


so

i really need some hope.

A Whole New Beginning

Wow. last night was a blur to me. ahahah i didnt even know what the heck i was saying on stage. but i remember clapping for most of the graduates. wow we did it... we finally walked across the stage... and are proud of what we have done for the last 12 years.
congratulations class of 2009. I wish everyone the best of luck in the future.
as president tracy ho said. stop counting your crayons and start drawing.
you can be whatever you want to be. believe in yourself, work hard, and you know what?
dont compare yourself to others.
ok.
not that much anyway because we all know that isnt really possible. and it is human nature to compete.
but regardless of what others think.
you have to get past that.
ITS YOUR LIFE.
and you only have one life to live so live in the way you dream of it to be.
never let anyone put you down.
it may be hard at times to stand up again after a storm, but you can do it.
life does not put things in your way that you cannot handle. conquer it.
again, my fellow friends, congrats! and good luck, may all your dreams come true.
As for me...


I dont know really what Im doing. It feels like im just wandering. I dont think Im pauline. i think Im just really... I dont know not myself. maybe its the skipping.
-.- yeah im at the library when im supposed to be in class.
i know i know.
but brenda is over there!

sometimes i think I know who I am but it feels like im not that person I want to be.
I knew who I perfectly was. buy now that I think about it... LIFE IS GOING TO BEGIN
and where am i going to be in 5 year? 10 years?
am i going to be the med student I've always dreamed of?
or will i fail...
what if my life depended on this one dream
and that dream got crushed.
one road. and no other alternative road to walk...
what if at the one road... there was no end...
what if I just keep wandering... not knowing what the do with my life.

what would my life be if my dream was shattered into a million of pieces?

sounds profound. very profound...

im scared
because it is MY LIFE. my very existence.

will i be the girl that ive always dreamed of?
sigh... only time can tell.


I know this sounds a little bit odd and depressing but you gotta think about these things because I am done with kid play... im done with holding up and examining my crayons.
i just want to draw my picture...

so remember, when life gets you down, dont let it.

i dont know if itll help, but when i do something courageous,
i listen to
R Kelly - The World's Greatest.

I'm that star up in the sky..
I'm that mountain peak up here...
Yah, I made it.
I'm the world's greatest.

just keep chasing the pavement,
dont give up.
because you will always end up somewhere.

-Pauline Hoang , class of 2009.

COMMENCE

its the moment we ve all been waiting for guys!!

lets walk forward and take a bow for our hard efforts

congrats class of 2009!!

i think kids are getting more and more bad lol
e.x. my brother

s to the tressed.

sssssssssscubjdkfssdfs
i think i should watch some calming greys anatomy

hahhah im starting to think my tv obsessions are not that great hahaha
who we kidding
greys anatomy wooo!! man i dont know which to put first.
lost or greys.
i get more quotes from greys ahahhaha i like their quotes

i wanna be like dr addison sheppard. minus the horrible part

"just gotta get through high school.."


i wonder if life really is like that for surgeons ...
damn.


what i would give to be a surgeon

ILOVEYOU

thanks for the ambitious award

I don’t wanna feel what I felt with the other. Shorty ain’t deserve me, Said I wasn’t worthy First we lock eyes then there was a lovin I ain’t need no drink now, finish the clubbin I ain’t ever wanna be finished with your lovin You made a better me, blind i see My apologizes, if my past in vain that i had you make you mad But the past is, as the past does and the past was Now the future us, more than a crush My dedication that you come strong and I pray that this thing lives on, stay strong Haters hate, still we gonna break arm I love you, this is my dedication


hahahah this evening went nicely
lol good memories
but i was pretty grumpy
but it was nice

a hard wwek

MAN THIS HAS BEEN A LONG WEEK

grad is taking its toll... on my marks.

man. cramming is not great. MAN. jesus frick

just. ugh. i have accomplished the biggest failure of my high school career.

dont ask it will upset you too

as AFOREMENTIONED it has been a long friggen week
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

anger. stop pissing me off
please

i love
lost

lol.
will work for love-james frauntleroy

i forgive you

U KNOW WHO U ARE!

DENIAL !! 

to be a good writer, i am not going to exploit anyone.

the END

"im not a leader, im a mess.. im a mess"

when you look up at the blue sky, nothing is impossible..
dont give up.

i hate that i feel dumb
=(

megan's second

it was megan's big two year old bash and all the cousins were over at pam's house

hahah i just feel like such a kid when i am with them

they had this blow up tent that you could go inside of

WARNING: holds only 250 lbs

right right hahah i went in anyways along with my other 100 pound cousins :D

we went to the park and ran up and down the hills

went back to pammy's house to eat corn

and then pizza... man i was stuffed. panago pizza ftw. :)

then at the end of the day, bob made a fire in the firepit and we all sat around the fire and talked about our lives

it started out with accomplishments hahahha- my cousins make me laugh

kody: "i got bit by a cat"

jess: "i got honors!"

emily: " im picture perfect"

aunt: "i had pam and megan" awww

and we clapped and gave standing ovations for big accomplishments

hahahah i got a standing ovation

pauline: " about the graduate in a few weeks"

my cousins erupted in applause! thank you thank you

then we went around the fire place and talked about your woes and problems.

then the fire started to diminish and we all went inside

i had a good time

thank you for always making me laugh guys

i love you guys.

happy birthday megan!

grade 12

is a big ol' cow hahaha
golly im tired

yay!!

lol yay!! i got the job wooo hooooo

foolish love- big bang

staying at school late

helping with taste of lazerte was a very fun thing.
hahahha it was tiring for sure yeah but anito , melody, and kent made it fun
anita and joyce are like the sisters that i never had : D i love em'
yeah tol is going to be great this year hahaha

im happy that i got 2 calls, hopefully i will impress them with the interview hahah
man im tired. i think thats about it
im so lazy but yeah peace out homes

p.s. i hate FICKLE fickle fickle people gr. suck it

just when things were lookin up
damn u social

p.s. i still like u mr. cameron just not ur exams

i like jason's look

jasonchok-- says:
but hes like the god of sex
LOL
jk

yeah he said that

KEEP THEM COMING!!

wish me luck with my interview and ugly social exam

random jots

j a p

me joyce and anito chilled today.
it was pretty tiring because I woke up at 8 am then we went to church and we helped Mrs. loo with her sunday school. oh i want kids now. they are so adorable!! i just want to scrapbook for my kid and buy clothes and soft teddy bears! ahh.. so cute. i take it back that i dont want kids (kinda) hahaha. sigh but im tired. then we went shopping at south commons, around the little outlet malls. we didnt find anything cool but i did buy some items such as: picture frame from michaels (50% off!!), the neatest little guide to stock marketing, and a new leather journal. i think im spending way too much! but overall the day was went extremely well.

grad is coming up soon, im excited haha.

thats right mom
i like that man

ahahahhahahah

sex to the ee

the good ol' days : )

ahh... southside lloyd ft ashanti
just chilling.

DONE MY FALL!!!

waste of time 12:25

12:18

12:12

12:07

12:01

GEEK

it is currently 11:55 and i am sitting in the library waiting for my enrollment time to become active;my classes better not be full or i will be angry. :(

chillaxin'

there is not hard working bone in my body hahahhahah
thats bad !!
enrollment date for my classes tmrrw.
yep.


hahahha. my 20x24 picture came. and it is huge! one day ill put it in front of my brother when he is sleepin and BAM! he wont even know what hit him
hoe bag hahahha

you know what makes me laugh! so i bought blue bags to recycle and everytime i need to cut up the cardboard i end up on the floor making a pile of cardboard scrap ahahah its pretty hilarious and i use the blade to cut the cardboard so sometimes i cant really cut the cardboard right through so i end up tearing it apart. just makes me laugh
imagine me recycling when im old

hahhahha

promise ring- a road to success

so i bought a ring. lol.. my mom bought me a ring. i like rings . they hold a lot of meaning and depth... to me anyway.. hahah well i've kinda become very tense with the university schedule building; it is a good kind of stress i think because i am actually very excited for university!!
so this ring i bought will encourage me to strive for excellence, try new things because you never know until you try, keep a clear mind on my priorities in life (hahahahah medicine!) yeah i think have become a little bit obsessive xD OCD for university hhahaha, and also to become the best at the things i do.
i know these goals are very hard to achieve and there will always be obstacles to overcome but hey. that's life! life does not put things in your way that you cannot handle. yeah so im pretty pumped! after this torturous year i'm pretty ready for a new start.

goodluck with everyone's planning!

p.s. i cannot wait
too lost in you- sugababes

SPRING!!

the snow is melting
its melting!!

2 more months 2 more months woo hooo

wooo HOOOOOOOO

if ur happy and u know it clap ur hands

CLAPCLAP

flo rida- sugar

ohh. my parents

so i told my mom that i was going to marry a white guy

hahahah

she flipped out.

& i told my dad

" AH GO TO SCHOOL "

ok mom and dad
love you guys

bliss rest

i am so thankful for this break
hahah
thank you thank you.
THANK YOU!
PB&J day -29 university n ikea
with a car!!

my appreciation for cars have grew over the years.
I'm just going to have to buy a lot of picture frames and print out my pictures haha
and sleep earlier hahaha

we had a scrapbook party for ange hahah it was fun. i actually made something this time yay
i have some practices over the break. hopefully that will remedy some of my problems
hahaha
i just feel very content right now; bliss!



ladedadad .. catch ya later cool cats
hope you guys have a great break!

ladeda...

maybe... definately!

shaw on demand: free movies make me smile

i feel so new york right now hahaha
i love this movie so much : )

i've got a crush on you - stacey kent

"i kept the book because it was the only thing that i had left of you"

knock on wood

doesnt always work hahahahahha

i have not won a single badminton match this season.

yup

i suck

NYC

friends fo lYFE :)

accountant
lave u ejn

HA HA AH

h: i like subtitles, even for lost, i read the subtitles
p: ok
h: yep
p: go read a book, its full of subtitles

h: oh, it feels so good
a: OWWW
a: HARDER AND FASTER.
h: "harder, faster. stronger. "



HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA hilarious

anybody here?

:]

enjoy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7lC5L9o0uvM
bye

pink skys harmonize me

I CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER.

I HATE THAT WE DONT TALK ANYMORE OKAY.
IM TIRED OF grrrrrrrr RRR rrr rRr R
im whinning

lol

how much longer? even tho it seems like everything is okay, its not
BLEH
i want candy

my 15th birthday scares me

LOL. yeah so i was spending my afternoon reading past birthday and Christmas cards

it scares me that i was once so young
i miss those simple days!
growing up too fast
and university is coming! ah!

p.s. i rather give up liking you then lose you as a friend even though i know u really don't care but i think u r someone i want to be friends with.


beyonce- halo

sick

wat can i say

being sick sucks

scratch that

when u sleep u die.
and when u wake up..

know what?
if you taught me one thing, it is to never be like you

fuck you.


i will keep fighting until i succeed. no one can erase the past but u can change the future.

gotta be somebody- nickleback

sweet melancholy

have you ever heard the song " in the end " by linkin park?

life is like that right now.
no matter how hard i try. everything just ends badly
everything i have ever looked forward to comes to an ugly ending

my whole life i have never been good at anything. i was never smart, never pretty, never anything. i wasnt born perfect but i still tried my best because i was tired of being criticized. i was tired of looking into the mirror and walking away with a frown. after elementary, i wished and prayed that i could become smart and when i started junior high i had a glimpse of success. i was getting a's. it was a good 3 years. i thought high school was going to be just the same. i said that i would get honors with distinction. in grade 10 i did. in grade 11, when i saw my name not on the list. i felt like my dreams just crumpled. everytime i walked along that hallway, my heart would just break a little more. its not about marks. its more than marks... its my life. my life dream that i could one day become a doctor. be smart enough to make that dream come true. so i worked hard and i got it. but you know what? in the end when i received that certificate, it was nothing to me. it meant nothing.

in the present

you know i wasnt born perfect. i try to better myself but i cant be perfect and no matter how many times you yell at me, i cant do anything. i cant change who i am. i threw away my sweats to appease you. i know you dont appreciate me because everytime i do something, ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH. its never going to be good enough for you. im not good enough for anyone. all my life,i wanted to be someone. someone who can stand up for herself. i try and i try and i guess im not strong enough to do anything. you know what? maybe u guys are right maybe im just not smart enough or talented enough to do anything. maybe i should listen to you. because im sick of trying to ignore what you are saying. im sick of trying to prove to you that i can do it and end up failing. im just so sick of everyone. i just want to move away from everything because i think i dont even know myself anymore. im tired of being second best or not good enough. im tired of trying to prove you wrong. im tired of getting laughed at. im tired of pretending that everything is fine when nothing is going right. im tired of trying to be what IM NOT. history always repeats itself and you know what? i want to defy that but everytime... every time.. EVERY SINGLE FUCKEN TIME. YOU PROVE ME RIGHT. you prove to me that im wrong, you prove to me that im worthless. why dont you go ahead and say it? tell me what i cant do because im so FUCKEN USED TO IT. and u know what? i'll accept it this time. im tired of being a joke, im tired of being not good enough

you win because
i surrender.

because in the end. it doesnt even matter

its just another memory.