so i told my mom that i was going to marry a white guy
hahahah
she flipped out.
& i told my dad
" AH GO TO SCHOOL "
ok mom and dad
love you guys
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
bliss rest
i am so thankful for this break
hahah
thank you thank you.
THANK YOU!
PB&J day -29 university n ikea
with a car!!
my appreciation for cars have grew over the years.
I'm just going to have to buy a lot of picture frames and print out my pictures haha
and sleep earlier hahaha
we had a scrapbook party for ange hahah it was fun. i actually made something this time yay
i have some practices over the break. hopefully that will remedy some of my problems
hahaha
i just feel very content right now; bliss!
ladedadad .. catch ya later cool cats
hope you guys have a great break!
ladeda...
hahah
thank you thank you.
THANK YOU!
PB&J day -29 university n ikea
with a car!!
my appreciation for cars have grew over the years.
I'm just going to have to buy a lot of picture frames and print out my pictures haha
and sleep earlier hahaha
we had a scrapbook party for ange hahah it was fun. i actually made something this time yay
i have some practices over the break. hopefully that will remedy some of my problems
hahaha
i just feel very content right now; bliss!
ladedadad .. catch ya later cool cats
hope you guys have a great break!
ladeda...
maybe... definately!
shaw on demand: free movies make me smile
i feel so new york right now hahaha
i love this movie so much : )
i've got a crush on you - stacey kent
"i kept the book because it was the only thing that i had left of you"
i feel so new york right now hahaha
i love this movie so much : )
i've got a crush on you - stacey kent
"i kept the book because it was the only thing that i had left of you"
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
knock on wood
doesnt always work hahahahahha
i have not won a single badminton match this season.
yup
i suck
i have not won a single badminton match this season.
yup
i suck
Sunday, March 22, 2009
HA HA AH
h: i like subtitles, even for lost, i read the subtitles
p: ok
h: yep
p: go read a book, its full of subtitles
h: oh, it feels so good
a: OWWW
a: HARDER AND FASTER.
h: "harder, faster. stronger. "
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA hilarious
p: ok
h: yep
p: go read a book, its full of subtitles
h: oh, it feels so good
a: OWWW
a: HARDER AND FASTER.
h: "harder, faster. stronger. "
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA hilarious
Friday, March 20, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER.
I HATE THAT WE DONT TALK ANYMORE OKAY.
IM TIRED OF grrrrrrrr RRR rrr rRr R
im whinning
lol
how much longer? even tho it seems like everything is okay, its not
BLEH
i want candy
IM TIRED OF grrrrrrrr RRR rrr rRr R
im whinning
lol
how much longer? even tho it seems like everything is okay, its not
BLEH
i want candy
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
my 15th birthday scares me
LOL. yeah so i was spending my afternoon reading past birthday and Christmas cards
it scares me that i was once so young
i miss those simple days!
growing up too fast
and university is coming! ah!
p.s. i rather give up liking you then lose you as a friend even though i know u really don't care but i think u r someone i want to be friends with.
beyonce- halo
it scares me that i was once so young
i miss those simple days!
growing up too fast
and university is coming! ah!
p.s. i rather give up liking you then lose you as a friend even though i know u really don't care but i think u r someone i want to be friends with.
beyonce- halo
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
scratch that
when u sleep u die.
and when u wake up..
know what?
if you taught me one thing, it is to never be like you
fuck you.
i will keep fighting until i succeed. no one can erase the past but u can change the future.
gotta be somebody- nickleback
and when u wake up..
know what?
if you taught me one thing, it is to never be like you
fuck you.
i will keep fighting until i succeed. no one can erase the past but u can change the future.
gotta be somebody- nickleback
sweet melancholy
have you ever heard the song " in the end " by linkin park?
life is like that right now.
no matter how hard i try. everything just ends badly
everything i have ever looked forward to comes to an ugly ending
my whole life i have never been good at anything. i was never smart, never pretty, never anything. i wasnt born perfect but i still tried my best because i was tired of being criticized. i was tired of looking into the mirror and walking away with a frown. after elementary, i wished and prayed that i could become smart and when i started junior high i had a glimpse of success. i was getting a's. it was a good 3 years. i thought high school was going to be just the same. i said that i would get honors with distinction. in grade 10 i did. in grade 11, when i saw my name not on the list. i felt like my dreams just crumpled. everytime i walked along that hallway, my heart would just break a little more. its not about marks. its more than marks... its my life. my life dream that i could one day become a doctor. be smart enough to make that dream come true. so i worked hard and i got it. but you know what? in the end when i received that certificate, it was nothing to me. it meant nothing.
in the present
you know i wasnt born perfect. i try to better myself but i cant be perfect and no matter how many times you yell at me, i cant do anything. i cant change who i am. i threw away my sweats to appease you. i know you dont appreciate me because everytime i do something, ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH. its never going to be good enough for you. im not good enough for anyone. all my life,i wanted to be someone. someone who can stand up for herself. i try and i try and i guess im not strong enough to do anything. you know what? maybe u guys are right maybe im just not smart enough or talented enough to do anything. maybe i should listen to you. because im sick of trying to ignore what you are saying. im sick of trying to prove to you that i can do it and end up failing. im just so sick of everyone. i just want to move away from everything because i think i dont even know myself anymore. im tired of being second best or not good enough. im tired of trying to prove you wrong. im tired of getting laughed at. im tired of pretending that everything is fine when nothing is going right. im tired of trying to be what IM NOT. history always repeats itself and you know what? i want to defy that but everytime... every time.. EVERY SINGLE FUCKEN TIME. YOU PROVE ME RIGHT. you prove to me that im wrong, you prove to me that im worthless. why dont you go ahead and say it? tell me what i cant do because im so FUCKEN USED TO IT. and u know what? i'll accept it this time. im tired of being a joke, im tired of being not good enough
you win because
i surrender.
because in the end. it doesnt even matter
its just another memory.
life is like that right now.
no matter how hard i try. everything just ends badly
everything i have ever looked forward to comes to an ugly ending
my whole life i have never been good at anything. i was never smart, never pretty, never anything. i wasnt born perfect but i still tried my best because i was tired of being criticized. i was tired of looking into the mirror and walking away with a frown. after elementary, i wished and prayed that i could become smart and when i started junior high i had a glimpse of success. i was getting a's. it was a good 3 years. i thought high school was going to be just the same. i said that i would get honors with distinction. in grade 10 i did. in grade 11, when i saw my name not on the list. i felt like my dreams just crumpled. everytime i walked along that hallway, my heart would just break a little more. its not about marks. its more than marks... its my life. my life dream that i could one day become a doctor. be smart enough to make that dream come true. so i worked hard and i got it. but you know what? in the end when i received that certificate, it was nothing to me. it meant nothing.
in the present
you know i wasnt born perfect. i try to better myself but i cant be perfect and no matter how many times you yell at me, i cant do anything. i cant change who i am. i threw away my sweats to appease you. i know you dont appreciate me because everytime i do something, ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH. its never going to be good enough for you. im not good enough for anyone. all my life,i wanted to be someone. someone who can stand up for herself. i try and i try and i guess im not strong enough to do anything. you know what? maybe u guys are right maybe im just not smart enough or talented enough to do anything. maybe i should listen to you. because im sick of trying to ignore what you are saying. im sick of trying to prove to you that i can do it and end up failing. im just so sick of everyone. i just want to move away from everything because i think i dont even know myself anymore. im tired of being second best or not good enough. im tired of trying to prove you wrong. im tired of getting laughed at. im tired of pretending that everything is fine when nothing is going right. im tired of trying to be what IM NOT. history always repeats itself and you know what? i want to defy that but everytime... every time.. EVERY SINGLE FUCKEN TIME. YOU PROVE ME RIGHT. you prove to me that im wrong, you prove to me that im worthless. why dont you go ahead and say it? tell me what i cant do because im so FUCKEN USED TO IT. and u know what? i'll accept it this time. im tired of being a joke, im tired of being not good enough
you win because
i surrender.
because in the end. it doesnt even matter
its just another memory.
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