LOL

Today, I was a TA for a history class and the class was taking a test. About halfway through, I noticed one kid had a small piece of paper in his hand. I ran up the row, grabbed his test, and ripped it into four pieces. Then I took the note from him. It said "I believe in you, -Mom." FML

life couldnt be suckier at the moment . i feel sorry for the girl who is going to end up with my brother.. serously. id rather jump off a cliff

kyle benj. >:/

i swear i will...

not swear unless absolutely necessary...

its getting out of hand.

my bro has a man crush on this guy named melvin.

"jei whats your gpa? melvin has a 3.6" okay..

"melvin is so smart, his gpa went up"

brandon+melvin= love

i'll tell you a secret.. if you don't tell

first and foremost: merry christmas.

it seems like i haven't been in good mood lately- that all i've been doing is swearing and swearing... and being ungrateful. perhaps.. it is because I have been a horrible human being lately. i can say with guilt that.. yes.. i have not been breathing. i have been keeping my breath pent up. i don't have an explanation for it. i don't have an answer to why I have been feeling like this... some might say its stress. some might say bitch. maybe pms? or...maybe its when you find yourself caught in between two things that you love - one you have planned your life around and the other you have dreamed about all your life.. thats all i really want to say about that.

so i was sitting around the family table on christmas eve listening to.. lol. my aunts and uncles talk about life in general. Life is full of different kinds of people... capable of doing anything-yes anything. i have this one aunt. all my aunts are fabulous. i told them they should write a book. anyway. aunt lan. shes like the super feminist- shes been married for a while now with 3 kids. wonderful lady. i love her. if you didnt know her well.. yeah.. you might be intimidated by her but.. she is my idol man. but at the same time, she is mad cynical. she works at the mall 8-9 hours a day facing people... just serving food.. and she gets *&FDUFDH@@#* from people. People are sick minded. yeah i caught the contagiousness. but she has so many disgusting inhumane degrading stories just from serving food to people. what is up with people? i dont get it. does it kill you to be nice? does it kill you to just keep what you're thinking to yourself sometimes? who gives YOU the right to make nasty comments? i really.. mind my language here.. i really fucking hate people who think that they are all that.. yeah show off. everyone shows off. but fuck. some people are just sick in the head. im saying this because before you decide to open your big fat trap next time. think again about what you say- words stick. they can make or break someones day. so next time. you fucking decide to open your ignorant son of a bitch mouth. think again. its flipping everyone. yeah.. i guess i have become a cynic myself haha.. my point is... i just want you to next time, be nice, it really makes a difference to the person on the receiving end. words are powerful things. use em wisely hm?

thats a lot i have ranted about. a lot that i have.. unravelled about myself. i feel kinda naked -giggles- kidding. but yeah.. i do find it hard to open up to people nowadays. i dont blame you for calling me frigid or... i dont know hypocritical in a sense but.. this is who i am. this is what im comfortable with telling..

we'll have lunch one day huh? you and me?
alright alright.. haha.. i'll let you get back to your lives..

call me!
-peanut in a peanut shell. aka. pauline :-P

its about time lol.

fuck you.

-smiles-

i hate fucking mother fucking liars like brandon hoang burn in fucking hell

fuck you motherfucking phone FUCKING PUK CAN FUCK URSELF U LITTLE BITCH.. FUCKING BITCH ASS NIGGER FUCK HEAD MOTHER FUCKER. BITCH NITCHFUCKEINGDS MARIHEN FUCK URSELF


FUCK U SIM CARD
FUCK U PUK NUMBER
AND MOST OF ALL

FUCK YOU TECHNOLOGY

okay lets get some shit done.

i dont know why im swearing so much.. haha fuck it.

happy one year pauline :- ) koodoos to me

i feel like i should blog about something epic haha but i have nothing going on that is worth the blogging ha

ohh.... yes i almost died today. haha kyle benjamin decided to pull a hypertension moment on me. i was driving and i hit the brakes and he didnt want to stop and.. yup i turned 90 degrees luckily the bastard decided to stop. oh kyle you always manage to do something crazy with my heart - how can i ever give you up? he gives me butterflies and he is most of the time a reliable man :-) i will always love you kyle, no matter what the shit you do to my heart.

im on a swearing streak as you can see... life is too short not to swear

PEACE OUT MOTHERRFUKKKASSS

kids. i only kids. goodluck with exams friendlies :-)

i love you dad
thank you for everything

thanks :-) sigh

still the memory of you marks everything i do...

im good now

lets just go our separate ways and never look back

i can't do this anymore

you make it hard to breathe.

unproductiveness.

Im doing myself a bad deed in procrastinating and not studying. you wait and suffer during final exam week pauline hoang. you will suffer and the only person you can blame is yourself. i just feel too lazy. i just want to have one day (that was today) that i did not do anything but be lazy and do nothing! it feels so good yet so bad at the same time haha fml. i want to go snowboarding :-) anyway toodles for a few weeks.


good luck on exams friendlies

@maggie la, you put me in a festive christmas mood haha thanks man

500 days of summer

im like that girl haha

leap year.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHCxrynMUMk

man, i've never felt so sure in my life.

PBJ LOVE

i am a creep.

er

had fun today guys <3 thanks


check out city and colour - waiting http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GwGgDdP67p8

some friend.

fuck off.

i thought you guys were the only thing that could make me smile regardless of whatever was happening in my life

who was i kidding?

i just want to be fucking left alone. just fuck off. i dont need this now.

breathe.. everything will be alright

thank you mac. thank you nice guy.

Create a MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

i love jennifer hoang period.

friends with blogs

haha i love to read everyone's blogs, you are all an inspiration.

thanks for the new songs la : )
im glad life is getting better! you can do it B!
Kerry, you teacher you, haha idk you just make me smile with your teacherness
jessL, hi. i havent seen u in forever hahah about the 15 year guy hahah

have a good one guys! take care

i need to go do yoga.... sigh. i hate school to the max..

birthday thanksgiving

stress is making me 19.


My birthday, I give thanks to the many people who have made my life, a happy one.

thanks to my family - thank you for making me laugh my stress away. I love you all. dad and mom, though u make me angry and upset - you have been the sun beneath the rain clouds. i love the sun because it makes me feel so damn good after a long day. my brother, who is no doubt the biggest asshole alive, i appreciate him because deep down, he is the person who understands me the most and underneath the degrading comments lies truth- he pushes me to strive for more (maybe it would be nicer if he didnt call me a moose or mule). jenn, brenda, joy, anito, & shirley - i cannot thank the world enough for great friends like you. jenn, i dont know man, without you i would be lost, always lending a helping hand. brenda, you always make me laugh, im always in a good mood when you're around. joy, you just are a joy - you make me feel like everything i do is not impossible! anito, hahah i dont know, you just make me feel like me or the person i want to be forever - down to earth. and shirley, hahaa just hahah you make me hahaha thanks for always being the accomplice to my absurd adventures.

there have been friends here and there that have made my life a moment to cherish and i thank you guys for that.

this has been a rough year and i have learned so much about myself, about people, about what i want in this life, about what is worth chasing after in life. i learned how to cry, to open up, to trust, to love, to forgive.

THanksgivin

bumblebee love !

ha ha ha what am i going to do with all this work? want to share?


im spreading free love :P LOVE FOR EVERYONE! had a good day today

its beautiful once the gray clouds move away

i love you sun

i dont even know who i am any more. it feels like im just floating in space.

its not fair.

ITS NOT FAIR.

sigh


FUCK IT. This is the time I have to be my strongest. where I fight head to head with the fucker. im not a measly fucking giveruper fuck. YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK YOU NEGATIVE FEELINGS OF SADNESS U FUCKING BITCH. U DONT FUCKING OWN MY LIFE. FUCK YOU ALL. IMMA FUCKING ROUND HOUSE BITTCHING PUNCH U IN THE FACE. AND KNOCK YOU OUT. NO MORE FEELING SORRY OR DWELLING ON THE PAST. THE PAST IS THE PAST. I CANT CHANGE SHIT. THINGS HAPPEN BUT LIFE MOVES ON. SO STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF.


REINVENT.

crysleep.

MD

be strong honey be strong.

live. laugh. love.

fucking hates my laptop with a passion bitch

hahha.. one step at a time pauline one step at
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goodday

conversation with oneself

have i fallen into the trap that im accusing everyone of?
i think i have.
how do i feel about that?
i feel like a hypocrite and i feel stupid and weak
am i calling you weak?
no
how does it feel?
it makes me feel terrible.
cant sleep
what are you going to do?
nothing; go upon living my life.

what do you see for yourself?

schools oh schools...

hates and likes

loves that she has knowledge.

dislikes physics, stupid dumb people

loves: bumblebee & family kickboxing working out

MD

We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, "Why did this happen to me?" unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way.

loving you is like mmmm....

i need a little help

hot yoga

cheers to a new year

all i got to say is
goodluck with studies
you work hard you will get it

you dont work you get, well, nothing!
so let's do it guys!
let's kick ass!!!


goodluck baby with your new owner xo

<3 love, love love.

Here's to baby for a lovely year!

thanks for all the good times and thanks for the experience; baby, i will miss you dearly. my first. my tiburon, my love. cheers

i love you

so believe it!!!

gotta love kickboxing a little more when people ask you for $1450 lower than what you were asking for. hahah can't wait for monday bitches..

i love muay thai LOL.

/quit school to fight in mma!!



hehe


jokes.


:)
cause you're my bestfriend.

muay thai [her experience]

Good day today - I had a day out with the sandwich girls. I appreciate you guys so much - I am not ashamed to say that I love you two. I love you brenda and i love you jenn!! you guys just bring a smile to my face regardless of what kind of mood i am in hahah... thank you.

So we went for sushi at mikados today then we went to chapters. then b left to go sit at home hahhahaha twidling her fingers i suppose.

me and jenn went to search for containers at numerous supermarkets: superstores, home depot(mistake), and walmart. we were basically all over the claireview area for 2 hours ish. we found our babies and we bought some school supplies! wooo hoo!!

THEN ME AND JENN WENT TO FRANK LEE'S! it was good times! hahah - it was fun no doubt; hard at some points and not so hard at some points but seeing that we were noobs, we didnt know what to do. i personally thought i looked like retard with my flailing arms and legs but hey! i had fun!! lots of guys haha and some girls. i was giggling. pretty sure that guy in front of me would have turned around and kicked my ass if hahah frank lee wasnt there. lol. this asian guy said i punch like the guys in kung foo movies -.- LOL he literally demonstrated my tardiness. hahahhaha damn.

I CANT WAIT TO GO BACK! HAHAHAHAHAH and i can get my hand wraps :) :) and tshirt and shorts !!!! :) ahahhahah i wish jenn could come back with me!

yoga tomorrow ?

we will see.


bye guys ♥

I hate food. I just hate it and I hate being on a budget. I bought some saucony shoes today I dont know how I will like them on the treadmill but they were 20% off. I can return them if they don't work with me. I need to return my waterbottle I bought because I have one at home. Yeah... I am waiting for school to start so I can hit the gym; use my uofa recreational pass- class starts at 9 so I was thinking of waking up at 6ish eating breakfast and then get to school around 8 and workout for 1 hr before class. 10% working out 10% genetics and 80% nutrition=optimal toning and weight loss Tosca Reno.

I despise that my brother calls me a hippopotamus and calls me obese.

I'm tired and I hope I sell my car tomorrow!

P.S. America sucks for health care you know? SUCKS.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=czk_Pne-rgQ&feature=related haha

As of today, the blog will be devoted to helping me cope with the stress I am feeling getting back into shape. Hahaha!! So today I woke up and layed in bed for more than 30 minutes. Big boo hoo because I was supposed to eating within half an hour of waking - don't worry; this will happen when school starts pauline. Or it better anyway.

My goals -
- toned body via lifting weights
- eat healthy ( small clean meals Thank you Tosca Reno from "The Eat Clean Diet" - fantastic book!)
- Learn how to kick ass MMA action!! Kickboxing @ Frank Lee's MWF.
- Hot Yoga at least once a week
- Look good for October wedding (lose 5 lbs)

I need new running shoes. I have recently discoverd that I have a high arch so I need to buy a neutral extra cushioning shoe. www.runningshoesexpert.com
I also need a monitoring watch.

Alright let's get started!!

Time to Reinvent

Time to change my ways like how the colors on the green leaves change into crimson.

I love fall colors. I love fall.

haha i missed hot yoga. had a good class today but im still pissed at the anal face.

likes brenda's song

KICKBOXING :):)

you have the choice to fucking change things

consider you the fucking one person i hate in this world.
little fucking hypocritical , no ethics, fucking son of bitch
GO FUCK YOURSELF
you deserve to die alone conceited son of bitch
you deserve to die period.

FUCKING . MAN THERE ARE NO WORDS FOR YOUR FUCKING ARROGANCE. GO FUCK YOURSELF.
and while you're at that- why don't you get a life and stop wrecking mine.
FUCKER.

as of right now. i fucking have no existent brother. FUCKING BITCH YOU CARES ONLY FOR HIMSELF. fuck im so over helping you. FUCKING HOE.
i will literally take the gun and shoot you to spare humanity of your fucked up ness

FUCK YOURSELF. BITCH.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=899a8WlVpNk&feature=av2e

but you can have all that's left... what's left of me

i don't know anymore

They think they know me but how can they know me i'm getting to know myself
I'm finally ready to be somebody
with a story to tell

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWruUnf1LGg

so let me live my own life.

bumble bee

makes me sleep... mmmmm.. i'm so sleepy

my toes are getting cold and i wear a sweater in the house

peash

dear kyle

tell him

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWKP1SwHVqI

love,
pauline

i am here to stay.

god forsaken parents.

being a human is way too complex

let's just all walk into the green of the quiet forest

sigh

breathe in and breathe out

giggles

got to start working out ha.

got to start working out ha.

loves eric lac

suMMer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8fj2HVYlD_4

cousins

i love spending time with the kids. seeing them lose at their games and perfecting a stance in order to win a teddy bear makes me laugh. silly gooses. i love them so much

guys i love

i have some friends who, when i think about, make me smile.

music is nice but sometimes the thunder and rain is all one needs

& perhaps a red book shelf

MMmMmMMmMM...................... okay

it's 2 am feelin like i've just lost a friend

i still feel you.

sometimes you got to do what you gotta do

i was more scared of hurting myself hahahahhaa

/lovessummer

MAYA

B.C.!! B.C.!!! B.C.!!!
BE THERE OR BE SQUARE

LOVE

DaveRishi :)

so me and my friendly Daverishi had a plan to go to the garden of dreams - yes. Garden of Dreams. It literally is a Garden out of your dreams. It's a perfect place for a wedding according to DaveRishi - the one with "the theory" (please read). I truly respect his theory. absolutely. truly. It was so beautiful with the lights in the dark and the flowers and ponds of koi fish. it was paradise in dusty kathmandu! Anyway. we had dinner there. my dish was pasta it was penne. i gave it a 6.5 and D gave his french fries and wrap a 7. could have been an 8. but mango juice was watery. haha

the evening was excellent asides from dave pressuring me to do things... INAPPROPRIATE THINGS. ok.. ok.. i wasn't pressured but obliged complacently to his suggestions. jeez.

it was a date.
although!
we talked about the 3 things that couples should not talk about on first dates:
1) religion
2) politics
3) future plans - we talked about kids' names.

it was nice - i enjoyed the conversation immensely

then we talked about what we looked for in our perfect mate
yes.

i have to say, this guy, touched me.
LOL

figuratively of course

what he said to me was honest and it really made my day -

DaveRishi, you will make a girl extremely happy one day -


it was a great first date


-pepppermiNT AH..

TIME TO PEACE OUT

HOLA CANADA!!

RAT IN MY DIRTY CLOTHES

do i seriously have to sleep near the remnants of rat carcass?

maybe pauline
you should
wash
your
dirty
moldy
1 month year old clothes


tomorrow.

THE THEORY

GOAL: attend a big Indian wedding.

So my new friend DaveRishi. what a guy. he just finished his second year of med school and he has a theory:
Study hard=get good grades
Work out= gain muscle lose fat
Relationships don't work like that
He was a hopeless romantic and claims that he will not get married
but he says I will probably get an invite to his wedding in 5 years
WOO! Indian wedding baby!

CARINA JOY HOANG

It's good to smell the polluted air again. Seriously. Kathmandu oh Kathmandu. So the trek was good. If you don't like to shower on days on end, hear the river's loud noises 24/7, and getting dark. Then trekking is or you. Haha I make it sound so bad. There were great parts to it : beautiful nature and quiet air. You learn so much about yourself trekking; what is important in your life and what you have overlooked as being important. It is an emotional and physical battle with yourself. Many times I found myself frustrated and angry but you know what? there's no one and nothing to be mad at but myself. so i let it go. Just let it go pauline. Haha. 4000 m air isnt that great. it's too thin for my lungs. that's almost half way up everest!


CANADA IN 5 DAYS!

LANG TANG TREK

9 days with Carmen
trekking approximately 10 hours a day

just quiet and


bliss

always present in myself.

R.I.P. ah gong

oscitant: yawning, as with drowsiness.

Enlightenment. I never asked for that before.
then again,
I never thought of it that way

Dear friendlies, i just want to let you know that i appreciate you all; you have all been a tremendous impact in my life. I love the laughter and joy that we have shared together. Thank you


I love you with my whole heart and I would do and give anything for you all my beautiful family.

I love you mom, dad, and hung.

Thank you for being so patient with me; you're the rainbow after the rain haha

Thank you

Love, Pauline

P.S. This is what travel does to you - it makes you realize the good things in your life that you sometimes take for granted.

Tomorrow is the day.

Take care

sharing is love yes..

25 days

this weekend: Last Resort Bungee/Canyon swing
Thursday: LANG TANG TREK

where does time go?

lol i had a good daytoday. lol its june 1st. i like taking the local bus by myself and I enjoyed pondering my drink that I had by myself after placement. chocolate smoothie... lol i think im going to gain weight here... unless... PURGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. anywhow my trek is delayed but im going paragliding woo HOO. :]

india.

BECAUSE I SAID SO :)
BUNGEE JUMP AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOL
i havent even done it and im excited

hahhaah

3,2,1......

free fall

enjoys days where I do nothing but read, knit, chill, eat, breathe, poop, LOL

LANGTANG trek


working on the post cards =)

VSUM

vanderbilt

Epiphany

To have someone you have only met for a week tell you that you sound lost
hurts

because medicine was my aspiration

So what is the reason for wanting to be a doctor?

Pauline: I don't know

SAREE FITTED TODAY!
I LOVE YOU PURAN AND RICARDO - SUPERMANS !!

hahhahahahah...... good times thru traditional kathmandu!

Dear Jam and Butter:

vancouver sounds like a good plan but i think i am going to spend most of my time with family but we can definitely have days where we chill :) okay miss you guys!

Peanut

Easties are coming! oh no! lol

Day 2

Well I am currently on my floor in my bedroom and I have met some new friends very nice peeps from western and eastern canada so pretty sweet - been in HK for a day did some shopping there but here i am. um. no expectations squat washrooms, no misquito nets, red rice on my forehead, tikas for arrival. LOL and customs oh customs. there were some random guys sitting on the side. we were like um... then they were like where you from? us: CANADA them: yeah whatever. go go. LOL CUSTOMS IN NEPAL PEOPLE! um flights were long and tiring but i got some sleep in um there is a protest going on so its going to be pretty hectic. stores are closed most of the day so yeah.. orientation starts on friday - meh chill. we are staying nayisbizzare LOL probs spelt in wrong but thamel is a tourist place - party in the usa. nice girls here at the house. yeah.. bathrooms are weird. but um i hope things will go well. no expectations...

over and out,
Pauline

YVG - First Stop Vancouver City

Dear all,

Do not fly with air Canada. I do not believe I was seeing things when the fricked up lady threw me my cup of nicely asked for water. (bit.. he he... things are going swell so far) I STILL CANT BELIEVE VANCOUVER AIRPORT HAS FREE WI FI. WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? you are a major disappointment edmonton. falling behind vancouver hahaha. Yeah I should really be pulling out the MCAT book BUT i have my labtop here and its going to die because they ran out of macs when i wanted to purchase one. OH MY DEAR GOD. stuck with LOTS LOTS LOTS OF ASIANS . i mean we're flying to HK but. still GOD. lol i dislike VERY MUCH. anyway i think im going to charge my labtop pretty soon before I go.

Cheers,

Pauline

Grace of God

Bree and Bria Joy :)

Penn & Cole

My Best

Dear friendlies,

Thank you for all your support and advice you have given me. I will miss the company and laughs that comes with having such great friends. I hope you guys have a fun and restful summer because we all deserve one after the year we've been through

There isn't too much to say but see you all in 2 months! and don't forget to email me!



Regards,

Pauline

why am i so tired lately?
must be tom

his coming to visit me

sleepover JAPanese style - never find a love like this

4 days

NAMASTE SUN !

at approximately 12 PM, April 27, 2010, may we have a moment of silence for the woman who finished her exams today

died inside a lil

VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED v

FUCK YOU BIOLOGY 207 I FUCKING HATE YOU.
FUCKING FAIL ME SEE WHAT I DO BITCH

WOOOO PSYCH! roCK DAT. rock dat!!

i would be the happiest girl if...

hi im a beagle

P starts to put away her first year stuff

she eyes the packing list and thinks later...

happy friday!

the mantra failed me.

literally.

failed.

11 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EXCITED.

LEAVING YEG !!!!!

I MADE IT

god bless america

13 days

feels like there is still 5 months left
havent started to pack or anything.

SPOTTED:

P with B and J in the med sci library + a "D"

B and J says P has a white boy crush (neurosis has gotten to them)

P smiles

3 A'S for english. crazee

my mantra:

motivated. motivated motivated

unproductive . dislike. dislike.

DISLIKE!!!!

Schiller feat. Colbie Caillat - YOU

made lasagna

& i feel better


good day

pauline hoang likes this.

GAR. GAR. gar. gar GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i dont know but...
wait until i know you better..
trying not to..
but i want to..
scared of ..
of what im

feeling.

i dunno . i think im falling

for ya.

colbie calliat- fallin for you

18 days

FAFJSDKLASDKJALDKJSALKDJSADKJASLDKJALKSJDALKSDAJDLKAJSD
must be motivated.

Abby Sunderland

this 16 year old is sailing the world

check her out wow!

http://soloround.blogspot.com/2010/04/63-and-sunny.html
http://www.abbysunderland.com/photo-gallery.php

monday tuesday wednesday thursday FRIDAY!

interview and dinner tomorrow
where to fit the studying???


i want to say something but nah

amour

plan: when the neighbor is not watching, snatch that handsome beagle

p.s. damn you edmonton

lol i hate being sick

SOMEONE SHOOT ME

I'm sick

of school, of people, of not being







- tbc

and i do want to try.
because if falling for you is crazy,
then im going out of my mind

this time. yeah. hold back your tears this time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itqs23XOAyE

MUST BE MOTIVATED or.
lol JUST BE MOTIVATED

day 3 and counting

violin. here i come you lil nasty

i'm going to be neutral

dont possess it; its not a good trait

- embrace it- and let it go

i love my dad
thanks for always fixing my stupid mistakes

GO HARD

bystander effect, have you ever felt this?

there isnt a hard working bone in my body... and i said i was going to go hard for march. no worries. april for sure...

je t'aime

psych likes to get rocked.

are we really the generation of narcissist?


PROCRASTINATION IS A [fill in the world]

its good to be back to the junior high days jenn

state of union:
motivated.

out:
- bio sci building

french <3

sex and the city.heart


BIKRAM YOGA

must focus on the present

watching my friends turn 19.

we're growing up

cheers

cause life is short; don't let it slip away

english and developmental psychology

standing in the light of your halo..

fume hoods my ass!

OMG I SAW A BAND

focus on the present.


you will make it.
you're on the right path

baby just smile back


REJOICE

toes.
nose.
i always know.
please stay.
the rain is falling on my windowpane.

just like a child

you're pretty much amazing.

I'm

standing in the
light of your halo


baby i can see your halo... you're my saving grace...

its just going to take me more years but if i start stressing about it now

its going to take off some years for me

JUST DO IT!

im so excited for you jess.
seeing my friends succeed and grow from the little grade oners we used to be
just gives me hope

take care,

i cannot fathom

ignorance gets you no where

smile.

FUCK YOU SCHOOL FUCK YOU

try: Oatmeal Raisin cookies

blue menu

$3 at superstores.

TOUGH LOVE

so.
my cousin emily who is in grade 6

this is her msn status:
"DEPRESSED (broken heart) so hard to watch something that has been in your life a few months leave"

pretty wise eh?

LOL.

its to her mercedes benz
tough love

Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

sunrise. giggles. boys. fun. chatting about life in 10 years

but when its here.

im desperate. clinging to you because i want someone who understands

melancholy.

i miss you

THE FRAY.

GODLY.

u should see my mom's imitation of me

finish level o

pauline's reaction : mm.. yeah i think about it.. m..

regular paycheck

rxn: OOOO OO YEAH OOO

daddy's little girl - tim mcgraw

a convo between me and my dad ...
we are both at home


phat says:
*what are you doing
paulineHoang says:
*i have to go shower soon
paulineHoang says:
*MAN I HAVE SCHOOL ON MONDAY
paulineHoang says:
*piss me off
phat says:
*you go now igo toyoutube bye

halo halo halo. halo halo halo. HALOOO.
lmao
sorry jenn and brenda. i woke up super late
how time flies when you are in bed.

halo halo halo. halo halo halo. HALOOO.
lmao
sorry jenn and brenda. i woke up super late
how time flies when you are in bed.

fitz S2 ming

FACK

i ran all the way there.

BITCH

SASKATOON

hahah so today in pal me and jenn met this guy
friendly chatty guy

and jenn said "brenda wants to go to vancouver"
me: why vancouver... why not saskatoon
guy: WHY SASKATOON?

lmao

then later when we were done class he said to us " have fun in saskatoon"
and then later later

we saw him again and i was like " saskatoon isnt that bad. i've been tempted to research tourist attractions there"

lmao. and he was right behind us

LMAO.

oh saskatoon guy

search for serenity

veux tu etre mon valentin

means

will you be my valentine?

im counting down the days until i can finally enjoy what i learn in school.


count: infinity

to be organic:

bliss

aspire to be the best you are

-yawn- lol

i want to strangle school


did u know that it takes 1000 years for shoes to biodegrade.
ahahha

to feel alive

i want to run with reckless emotion
find out if love is the size of an ocean.

i wanna feel till my heart breaks wide open
i wanna blaze like a fire that is growing..

at least im gunna know what its like to
feel alive.

becki ryan- alive

flicka

Dear Jam,

Greatest honour to have passage into your private mind. (hehe)

babyxfaith@hotmail.com

words.

unspoken words.

i'm sure everyone has experienced this once in their life; where you have something to say but you are afraid to say it. some people live it, living life not saying anything. letting people stomp all over you.

once upon time, i would find peace with this. let them say what they say because in the end, i will come out victorious but now as i grow up, i find myself thinking, screaming... COULD YOU SHUT THE F. UP. you can do rot in the bottom of hell and i hope everything miserable comes flying your way. tearing you apart as if you were just a piece of shi. sometimes i just want to fuc.en take a gun and shoot off someones face. like bloody murder someone on the table. but somehow i contain that.

i smile discreetly and think "I am better than this"

i just want some peace okay. the world can shutup, break down for all i care. but i need peace. i need to find my inner peace again

because without it

i'm nothing

And everytime I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

ZZZZzzzzZZZZzZzZZzZZzZZZZZZzZZZZZzzZZZZZzzzzzz

for now...
all i can do is wait. haha
ag im tired

=) i love sleeping! hm...

hm...

van vilet is alright at 9 haha
tho: I don't really know what to do :)

let us play SQUASH

I need a project. Inner city school kids...

okay. LETS do it

FOURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Pauline

Can you relate to these feelings?

Feels like the flowers slowly growing
Feels like a fresh stream of water
Feels like a walk through the lush forest
Feels like when i open my violin case

Feels like the happiness and the warmth of the sun
Feels like writing in your journal after a long day
Feels like walking aimlessly on a warm summer day
Feels like walking on your stilltoes in a nice summer dress, like bliss
Feels like putting my music on the stand


Feels like Rain
Feels like the autum leaves falling sadly to the cold concrete floor
Feels like the brisk air when you go for a walk
Feels like opening your blinds and looking out at the world of fog, unclear
Feels like when i smile when i look out at the church bleachers

Feels like the first snowflake
Feels like the pink sky in the evening
Feels like when you walk out the door with no jacket
Feels like when i end a piece of music.

Hearing my own shoes walk across the olden wood floors