love..

i love being a girl
i love chilling with my aunts
i love my cousins

i love life at the moment :-)

& i love you

My VLOG : P

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reflections after death

haha... after a stressful week with 3 midterm exams and several assignments - I walk away with a tumblr full of tea in my hand, big black bags under the already chink eyes, and a major lack of sleep. I have to say that the couple of exams i did during this past week were not that bad, meaning i walked away feeling like i did a good job of studying. i have 3/5 classes that are not curved or maybe 4 including philosophy (am not sure about that one)- i know i am a contradictory little person for saying this but.. damn the curve would have been so much better in some of these cases! um... i dont think i did a good job balancing extracurricular as CDA was not open due to moving and i did not get to do any.. exercise- but of course, that will be made up for during reading week. ha! hopefully. i already have my to do list ready for the next 2 months- mind you, starbucks tumblr in hand of course full of tea hahah.. darn i am addicted to caffeine. i must also catch up on some much needed sleep... to end this reflection, i leave you, peanut, on a to be achieved high note.

did you notice i came full circle with this reflection hahah... im caught in a vicious cycle... oh dear..

2 months to go guys! we can do it!

PSYCO 233 with Jennifer Passey

I believe I deserve at least an A- when I beat 88% of a class of 300.

just saying.

ring in the tumblr

i have the most effed up dreams ever! what is wrong with you id, ego, and superego?

anyway - i got my macbook pro fixed yesterday thank god... i can hand in my stat assignment on time. phew! i think macs are good reliable hardy technology if you dont mess around with it- meaning no spills. no dropping it. - and the apple team is actually pretty handy.
yeah so anyway. that's out of the way. i got my tumblr today. i copycated b because i enjoy the red colour haha hopefully no hard feelings! it was also on sale so.. i just had to get it!

um. planning to get my polaroid for jasper :-) got to snap some good memory pictures- im excited...
but not for tomorrow

i am so effed beyond belief for physio... southgate is a nice mall!

good day!

will you be my valentine?

hahahahhaha... oh gosh pauline

:-P
loser.

goodbye france

Dear brenda and jenn, my butter and my jam - i know that both of you already know my stance on going to france. it started out as a great idea to me - lots of lots of fun with my two closest friends - i mean who wouldnt want that? going off to a beautiful place to spend time with the people who make you happy!

it would be loads of fun - i think if i was to sit in my rocker 70 years down the road - i would still remember my decision - perhaps regret it even...but its not my time. going to france is not going in line with my priorities right now. i know both of you have the full intensions of gaining lots out of this experience. brenda, for you to complete your requirements for your degree and for jenn, just to go out there and have fun because you truly truly deserve it.. i am truly happy for you guys.

stress - its when your inner motives are going against your needs - i know for certain now that i am willing to acknowledge that i have to sacrifice some things to damper this 'stress'. and even for now, just telling you guys i am not going to go thru with it, is a step.

guilt - i said i would go. i got you guys excited. and now i've come full circle and am saying no. for this, i cannot express how very sorry i am. thank you for your understanding.. i appreciate it.

with that all said, i hope you guys have a great time - i know that it is going to be a busy process in preparing but i know for certain that it will be a everlasting memory you 2 make for yourselves and with each other..

france is always going to be there.. and so is the rest of the world - we will have adventures to come..

my love and best to the 2 of you


love,
pauline (your peanut)

France- Butter and Jam - Jasper Marmot Basin

Dear France Trip,

All my work pay checks and red envelope money will be dedicated to you, thank you for making me restrain:


from:
- juice book at indigo
- runner's magazine at london drugs
-polaroid camera (until I have saved up enough)
- a warm cozy pom pom hat from eddie baurer

its hard because I really want these items :(

Dear B and J:
I don't know why, I know you guys are going to hate me for this.. but I don't know why I still don't feel right about going to France - perhaps I need to BUY the Lonely Planet Guide for France to feel like I am. I know you both say its for school... but.. damn its expensive... and i'm not on great terms with my parents... plus I want to write my MCAT and work this summer- just seems like a... burden to have to worry about saving on top of getting everything organized. I have stayed away from my meet the advisor form for awhile... I know! I know! I'm a terrible person. I just don't know why I feel like this.. I do have a few weeks I suppose and months if you want, to think about it- internalize it but... it's causing me to fret.


On the happy note,

Dear Jasper and Marmot Basin,
I am excited for you he-he... woo-hoo get to chill with my home girls tho and joy on the slopes :-)

and i will succumb to:

- the non existent perfect tumblr i'm still searching for..

thank you for rocking my world.. hahaha my socks as well..

:-)

erratic, fickle, out of order, messy, disorganized, disorientated = pauline hoang

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