Dear brenda and jenn, my butter and my jam - i know that both of you already know my stance on going to france. it started out as a great idea to me - lots of lots of fun with my two closest friends - i mean who wouldnt want that? going off to a beautiful place to spend time with the people who make you happy!
it would be loads of fun - i think if i was to sit in my rocker 70 years down the road - i would still remember my decision - perhaps regret it even...but its not my time. going to france is not going in line with my priorities right now. i know both of you have the full intensions of gaining lots out of this experience. brenda, for you to complete your requirements for your degree and for jenn, just to go out there and have fun because you truly truly deserve it.. i am truly happy for you guys.
stress - its when your inner motives are going against your needs - i know for certain now that i am willing to acknowledge that i have to sacrifice some things to damper this 'stress'. and even for now, just telling you guys i am not going to go thru with it, is a step.
guilt - i said i would go. i got you guys excited. and now i've come full circle and am saying no. for this, i cannot express how very sorry i am. thank you for your understanding.. i appreciate it.
with that all said, i hope you guys have a great time - i know that it is going to be a busy process in preparing but i know for certain that it will be a everlasting memory you 2 make for yourselves and with each other..
france is always going to be there.. and so is the rest of the world - we will have adventures to come..
my love and best to the 2 of you
love,
pauline (your peanut)
I'm loving your very valentines day mood for your blog haha :)
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